Happies

So yeah I went from barely ever writing to writing three posts in one day hah.

I thought about it for a little today. Maybe I shouldn't graduate early. If I don't, I wouldn't miss out on scholarships, and I would get to take AP classes. And no waste of money that comes from summer school.
I might even be able to go to Harper for free because my ACT was 31 (hoping to get it higher on my ACT next week because on the one I took last time, the science portion was pure hell). And although I admit I haven't been working really hard, I know I can change that. And I am already working on it. Funny how things change when you are happy hah.

I know I will have bad days in the future, especially when he is far away. But I'm doing this bizarre and alien thing (at least to me) called "looking at the bright side." It's actually nice.

Man, I was freaking out about EVERYTHING. Now I feel OK with him going to U of I. I admit it's a great school and I won't have a problem with anything he does (unless he is partying because if I am not, I expect him to do the same). He is brilliant, and I know he will do well with Astronomy hah. Hopefully one day I can join him in U of I, and do Physics or Engineering.

I was freaking out about EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF (hah) but for some strange reason, Charlie likes me the way I am. And although I still don't like the way I look, the fact that he loves me greatly comforts me.

I have to admit, I didn't have such a great start in Physics, but I actually do the work now ad HOLLY SHIT it is fun as all hell. I really enjoy it, and I can't wait until AP Physics next year.

Nice to feel happy again. Hopefully I won't mess it up with my neuroticism any time in the near future hah.

:)