A long drive

I have been slowly losing my sanity over this. My love will be transferring to a college three hours away, and though I know it's not as bad as across the country, it limits the times when I can see him.

I love him. And I want to be with him. As stupid and anti feminist this is, I would follow him to the ends of Earth. I don't care that I won't learn much about aerospace and mechanical engineering for a couple of years, the situation would actually turn out for the better because I could work part-time and pay off college instead of being in debt for the rest of my life.... I have this all planned out.

So I offered the idea of me tagging along while he would finish college. He asked me if that's what I want.

I don't care. If that is what would keep me closer to him, then I am an idiot for not thinking of it earlier. If it means I will get to see him every day instead of waiting at home for his call, then definitely. Sacrifice is giving up something good for something BETTER. And if it means going to a community college for a couple of years while he is finishing up in U of I, then that would make me the happiest person in the world.

I just don't want to be pushy and say "oh, and by the way, in a year we are moving in together and I will be with you in U of I." That sounds like it has major stalker potential. What I do want to do, is I want to let him know exactly how much he means to me, and, well, what I would do for him.

What I would expect in return would be patience with me. I will go to a community college while he is at U of I, and after he finishes and finds a job, I will transfer to a college that will be nearby. The more I think about this, though, the harder the situation seems. Where will his job be? By there, is there a college that teaches aerospace?
Will he even love me that far into the future? I really don't know.

I guess for as long as I am with him I will try to find solutions for the problems that have yet to come.

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