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I remember when I would stay up all night writing blog entries (that I would delete because they were embarassing) about Charlie. I realized after we started hanging out that I fell for him, and I fell for him HARD. Seeing him was the greatest feeling on earth, and everything revolved around him. Oh the exitement of new love. Just getting to know him, and getting to spend time with him.

Now it's a little different.

Now he IS my world. Now I cannot imagine living without him, or going without his voice for a day. My future is planned around him, and he is top on my priority list. Now, whenever I see him, I am not bouncy and excited, but I do have a burning feeling deep inside. It is not just lust and attraction anymore, pure deep love is added into the mix. He seems to be a part of me. It's awesome.

I think this is what a relationship is supposed to feel like. People get bored after like the first year, but for me, my love for him intensifies with every moment I spend with him, with every little detail I observe. The more I get to know him, the more I understand him. And the more he understands me.

I do not have to worry about how I act around him. When I am with him, I act like MYSELF. I don't have to put on a fake smile when I am upset, and with him, laughter comes naturally.

I am happy. I hope in the future things would get even better. I can see myself spending the rest of my life with this man.